what is this weather!

Ah! Okay, I love love love rain, so I was so excited to hear it. But I thought that maybe it would ease up just a little bit. So just a minuted ago I looked out the window and saw big slushy flakes! WHAT! I'm so not ready for the winter to be here. My summer flew by, what with Wyatt's arrival and all. I had big plans today and they've been complicated by this change in weather. Can't haul my baby around in the rain!

So Peter and I kinda got into it the other night and now he won't talk to me. I sent him a text last night that said "i hope you're being safe" and he writes back "i am!!!!..." Yes...that's four exclamation marks. Yikes sorry for caring! He's ignoring me and it totally makes it awkward. I feel like I have my old roommate again and she's avoiding me because she's paying rent late once again. I don't know that I really want to talk to him though, I guess I just need to give him his space. I don't really know what's going on with him so I hope he figures it out soon.

Anyway, I hope everyone has a great weekend!
Loves

back by popular demand...

My SoN!

haha he's just so dang cute!

These shorts are WAY to huge on him, but oh well!

Happy Boy!

We had a photo shoot...He's probably wondering what i'm doing

This is his Stud outfit! I totally love it! Thanks Jenn!

I walk out of the room and come back and

he has the burp cloth over his head!

He's the cutest kid ever... I don't really have much to report. Things are going good. I just made cookies, I have attempted at least three times not to burn them...but my stove sucks and the back is hotter than the front and it just sucks... I fail everytime. But oh well. I'm over it really. I'm kinda in a blah mood so this blog is probably pretty lame besides the pictures, so i'll stop babbling so you can enjoy!

Loves!

everyone's got an opinion...

I understand that people mean well, and that they just want to help out the single mom... But it's starting to really drive me crazy. It just seems like everyone thinks that they know what's best for me and Wyatt. I love Wyatt's dad, always have and always will. But I don't have to put up with what he has chosen to do with his life... which right now is nothing. Everyone wants me to go after him for money. What money? This guy I work with (who i really respect and like) just came in and talked to me for like 15 minutes (although it seemed like an eternity) about how I should get money from him and get it set up in a trust account. And by not doing so I'm just cheating Wyatt. Which yes, that's a smart thing and a really good idea. But honestly it would be easier for me to just put money into a trust account. Maybe I am being to easy on Chad. But then again I'm just doing what I feel I need to do right now. And if I told half these people that it's my decision not to have Chad around right now they would think I was crazy... wait a second...they already do for not using him for money he doesn't have. *sighs*

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WALK IT OUT FOSSE!!

This totally makes me laugh so hard! They put this song to some ladies dancing in a 60's video.

2 months

I can't believe that it has been two months already! And i didn't even take a picture of him in the cutest outfit ever! I will have to next time he wears it. He was absolutely adorable. These past two months have gone by so fast. I went to the doctor today for his 2 month check up when they give them those stupid shots. I almost cried. Of course they don't cry their usual "mom i'm hungry" or "put me to bed" cry... it's like a high pitched shriek and their little lip curls under and tears...yes TEARS roll from their little eyes. it took everything for me not to cry. i'm just glad she was quick about it. of course Wyatt probably doesn't even remember it anymore, so i should probably get over it.

So i was thinking about what people think when you say you're not with the father. I have my reasons why we aren't and if I want to talk to them about it I will. And although it shouldn't matter what other people think, i feel hesitant telling them. Like Wyatt's doctor asked today when he was asking me if I was getting the breaks I need and whatnot, and i had no problem telling him that Chad and I aren't together. But I went and got my nails done the other week at one of those little asian places and I totally lied to her about it! LOL it's always awkward when they start talking to each other and you have no idea what's going on. And most of the time they are talking about you. I found it totally ridiculous that I lied to her...she doesn't know me, and I won't be going back there. So maybe I do care? I guess I just think it's funny.

I'm so excited for tomorrow...I'm getting my hair and eyebrows waxed and I've never been more excited. My eyebrows are beyond bushy and I'm sick of my hair. The End.

there should be a rule about text messaging.

it should not be used when trying to have serious conversations. or maybe it shouldn't even be used at all. but i want to apologize to the person whos feelings i hurt. it wasn't my intention at all. i know i can't blame it on this, today hasn't been the best day for me and i should have thought over things better before i let my own emotional craziness take over. so i'm sorry. and i love you.

so i'm sitting in my office with my little "do not disturb" note on the door, i'm crying, trying to feed wyatt, texting, and i look down and i've leaked through my shirts when Matt comes knocking on the door. i lied and told him i was still nursing so that i could gain my composure. lol he came back like ten minutes later and i think that i had it al together. maybe he still noticed. but whatever. girls cry. even though matt's like a really good friend and it probably wouldn't matter if he saw me crying. on another note...i think he likes playing daddy. we went to lunch yesterday and he pretty much took over. it was cute.

anyway, i hope everyone's day is a little better than mine. wyatt is sleeping and i'm getting everything done which is good, because I want to leave at 4. keep your fingers crossed!

just because he's so cute!

Wyatt was so cute at work today!

So of course I had to take some pictures!

i love technology.... but not as much as you you see

so funny thing happened. i'm just finishing up cleaning my house and yes it is 1:20am. about 30 minutes ago some weird number called me and of course i let it go to voicemail and this guy leaves a message obviously thinking i'm someone else and says "your new phone sucks i couldn't understand your message" which is why he continued to think i was someone else. anyway i sent him a text and just said i think you have the wrong number and blah blah blah. so he calls me and this is how it goes...

party guy: "who is this"
me: "this is ashley"
party guy: "um...do you know a kate"
me: "my sister, but she's married and i doubt you would be calling her"
party guy: "right, definately not. i'm really confused though how i got you"
me: "well maybe you dialed wrong"
party guy: "that's just the thing, i didn't dial her number i just hit call from my phonebook, what the h*ll"
me: "laugh, well i don't know how that happened"
party guy: "ya, me neither...well sorry, i hope you have a good night"
me: " you too"

intriguing right? lol well the funniest thing is when he called me back like two minutes later.

party guy: "kate?"
me: "nope, ashley again"

we kinda laughed about it for a minute still trying to figure it out and he thanks me for having a sense of humor about it and is glad that "he's not bothering some old lady at 1 in the morning" and then we say our goodbye's again.... once again two minutes later he has his friend try to call "kate" and it comes to me. lol so i think i'll be calling t-mobile in the morning. but maybe i won't...what if this is fate and he's my husband? lol k i doubt that, but he did have a nice voice :)

when all else fails...

toss them in the bathtub! unless of course they hate the bath, but wyatt enjoys taking a bath. i was about two seconds away from going b*tch cakes! (there is just no other word to describe it sorry) after many failed attempts to get him to bed i just wanted to cry. it's 11 pm and i'm tired, my house is a disastre area and i sat on myspace for about an hour looking for people i used to go to school with. WASTE OF TIME. not like this is much better! but whatever i'm over it. but the bath was a success! i stuck him in some oversized pajamas and that was that. now i can get some cleaning and me time. tonight was the first night i wanted to leave him with the husband and run out the door *dreams* i better get looking for that husband :)

tonight he was really cute though, he was smiling so much. i was singing him a song and he just smiled and probably thought i was such a dork. really he's amazing and so cute! he has like this mullet thing happening with his cute curly hair! the top of his head has this cute curl and then the back of his head has a bunch of it too. it's funny. i've always wanted a little blonde curly headed kid and now i've got one! i'm so excited for all his hair to come in.

we got wyatt's pictures done last week...sorry if i already told you. but i seriously can't wait to get them! they are so adorable!! if you guys want to check them out go to www.michellenuttall.com scroll down and click on children

and then wyatt gibbs (obviously) the password is ashley and then you just put in your own e-mail and then you can look at them. they are so cute! he was pretty fussy during his photoshoot but you can't even tell. it's was a pretty tiring event that's for sure. i felt like i needed a stiff drink afterwards and my mom wanted a coke lol needless to say we refrained and got over it. anyway, i think that's it for me tonight. i am going to clean my house i guess! it's driving me crazy! goodnight and sweet dreams!

when there's nothing else to do....blog!

Okay, so today has been an okay day. Nothing really has gone on, but I think it's this crappy weather! I totally want to be home and all cuddled up on the couch or something. I've found that i've been staring more at Wyatt today than doing actual work. But seriously, who can blame me?

So my boss is now working with a builder. Which Blah... no offense to any builders. But they like doing things THEIR way. BUT he's single, has a stupid name (well it's not totally stupid lol), owns a big truck, his own business oh and he "needs some work". We're scheduled to get married tomorrow actually because "i don't have time for you guys to waste on flirting" - JG which I think is hilarious. Apparently I flirt with just about everybody. And I'm not going to deny it. But the more she tries to describe him the more worried I become. Can I really marry someone I haven't seen tomorrow?! He's seen my picture and he didn't say no LOL K but on a serious note. No TRAY and I are not getting married. But I am a little intrigued. He's opening up a little more on the phone, unlike the first time we spoke. It was really one of the most awkward phone calls of my life. Especially when he and my boss and her husband had just discussed us getting married. Which brings up another point... I think my friend asked me to marry him last night. I kinda laughed it off, but I'm not totally sure if he was kidding. For like six years he's been saying he's going to marry me lol I'm a dork.

I am going to start my home remodel here pretty quick. I'm really excited, but it's harder than I thought. Picking out all the colors and crap and trying to decide what will look good and blah blah blah. I finally found the cabinets that I want at Lowes. They are perfect! So I'm excited about that. And the most exciting part... I get to move back to my mom's while it's going on! I don't want Wyatt to be breathing in all that crap. Aren't you happy Kate? That's what I thought. Anyway...I'm going to get out of there :) Hope everyone is doing fabulous!

Love ya!