what is this weather!

Ah! Okay, I love love love rain, so I was so excited to hear it. But I thought that maybe it would ease up just a little bit. So just a minuted ago I looked out the window and saw big slushy flakes! WHAT! I'm so not ready for the winter to be here. My summer flew by, what with Wyatt's arrival and all. I had big plans today and they've been complicated by this change in weather. Can't haul my baby around in the rain!

So Peter and I kinda got into it the other night and now he won't talk to me. I sent him a text last night that said "i hope you're being safe" and he writes back "i am!!!!..." Yes...that's four exclamation marks. Yikes sorry for caring! He's ignoring me and it totally makes it awkward. I feel like I have my old roommate again and she's avoiding me because she's paying rent late once again. I don't know that I really want to talk to him though, I guess I just need to give him his space. I don't really know what's going on with him so I hope he figures it out soon.

Anyway, I hope everyone has a great weekend!
Loves

back by popular demand...

My SoN!

haha he's just so dang cute!

These shorts are WAY to huge on him, but oh well!

Happy Boy!

We had a photo shoot...He's probably wondering what i'm doing

This is his Stud outfit! I totally love it! Thanks Jenn!

I walk out of the room and come back and

he has the burp cloth over his head!

He's the cutest kid ever... I don't really have much to report. Things are going good. I just made cookies, I have attempted at least three times not to burn them...but my stove sucks and the back is hotter than the front and it just sucks... I fail everytime. But oh well. I'm over it really. I'm kinda in a blah mood so this blog is probably pretty lame besides the pictures, so i'll stop babbling so you can enjoy!

Loves!

everyone's got an opinion...

I understand that people mean well, and that they just want to help out the single mom... But it's starting to really drive me crazy. It just seems like everyone thinks that they know what's best for me and Wyatt. I love Wyatt's dad, always have and always will. But I don't have to put up with what he has chosen to do with his life... which right now is nothing. Everyone wants me to go after him for money. What money? This guy I work with (who i really respect and like) just came in and talked to me for like 15 minutes (although it seemed like an eternity) about how I should get money from him and get it set up in a trust account. And by not doing so I'm just cheating Wyatt. Which yes, that's a smart thing and a really good idea. But honestly it would be easier for me to just put money into a trust account. Maybe I am being to easy on Chad. But then again I'm just doing what I feel I need to do right now. And if I told half these people that it's my decision not to have Chad around right now they would think I was crazy... wait a second...they already do for not using him for money he doesn't have. *sighs*

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WALK IT OUT FOSSE!!

This totally makes me laugh so hard! They put this song to some ladies dancing in a 60's video.

2 months

I can't believe that it has been two months already! And i didn't even take a picture of him in the cutest outfit ever! I will have to next time he wears it. He was absolutely adorable. These past two months have gone by so fast. I went to the doctor today for his 2 month check up when they give them those stupid shots. I almost cried. Of course they don't cry their usual "mom i'm hungry" or "put me to bed" cry... it's like a high pitched shriek and their little lip curls under and tears...yes TEARS roll from their little eyes. it took everything for me not to cry. i'm just glad she was quick about it. of course Wyatt probably doesn't even remember it anymore, so i should probably get over it.

So i was thinking about what people think when you say you're not with the father. I have my reasons why we aren't and if I want to talk to them about it I will. And although it shouldn't matter what other people think, i feel hesitant telling them. Like Wyatt's doctor asked today when he was asking me if I was getting the breaks I need and whatnot, and i had no problem telling him that Chad and I aren't together. But I went and got my nails done the other week at one of those little asian places and I totally lied to her about it! LOL it's always awkward when they start talking to each other and you have no idea what's going on. And most of the time they are talking about you. I found it totally ridiculous that I lied to her...she doesn't know me, and I won't be going back there. So maybe I do care? I guess I just think it's funny.

I'm so excited for tomorrow...I'm getting my hair and eyebrows waxed and I've never been more excited. My eyebrows are beyond bushy and I'm sick of my hair. The End.

there should be a rule about text messaging.

it should not be used when trying to have serious conversations. or maybe it shouldn't even be used at all. but i want to apologize to the person whos feelings i hurt. it wasn't my intention at all. i know i can't blame it on this, today hasn't been the best day for me and i should have thought over things better before i let my own emotional craziness take over. so i'm sorry. and i love you.

so i'm sitting in my office with my little "do not disturb" note on the door, i'm crying, trying to feed wyatt, texting, and i look down and i've leaked through my shirts when Matt comes knocking on the door. i lied and told him i was still nursing so that i could gain my composure. lol he came back like ten minutes later and i think that i had it al together. maybe he still noticed. but whatever. girls cry. even though matt's like a really good friend and it probably wouldn't matter if he saw me crying. on another note...i think he likes playing daddy. we went to lunch yesterday and he pretty much took over. it was cute.

anyway, i hope everyone's day is a little better than mine. wyatt is sleeping and i'm getting everything done which is good, because I want to leave at 4. keep your fingers crossed!