Happiness Challenge

So, I guess lately I've been really trying to figure out what my true happiness is. Trying to find my joy in life so to speak. And of course there is your family! Unless they are totally heinous, and sorry if they are! I know I can always depend on them no matter what, and most nights I'd rather be hanging out with them than with my friends. But besides my family and the few friends that I've managed to keep around, I'm having a hard time finding my joy. I played soccer for years, and I enjoyed that...I think!? K well I did for the most part, but I think having a parent as a coach is bound to ruin any joy you have in any sport. period. end of story. I always wished that I could dance, but I think it's a little too late to pick that up. I don't know how many professional dancers start out when they were 23. Maybe I could go far on So You Think You Can Dance... but my chances aren't looking too promising at this point. So, I'm going to continue my search and challenge everyone else to find your joy in life. You can report on it if you want, but you most definately can keep it to yourself. On your mark, get set...find joy!

I know the suspense is killing you

I haven't posted anything about the date, because well...the date didn't happen. Which is okay, and it might be a good thing. Who knows. But there is always next time. And when there is a next time, I will for sure let you all know!

everyone stay calm!

Apparently I kinda freaked everyone out...or something like that! I just like the song :) *hands Andee a wash cloth* Today is day 3 of the Raw Food Challenge! Yesterday was rough, especially when Kate busted out the Mac and Cheese for Lottie! But, she had to make a hot dog earlier in the day, so she wins on temptation level. Pehrson keeps asking me when the diet is over so that we can go to lunch again, but then he eats all my yummy raw food that I bring in. He's a dork. It's usually just us in the office lately. Jenn and Kirk stay home and work thanks to my magnificent manifesting skills! This agent in my office is going to talk to his partner about giving me a file to look over, which is exciting for me! Although when he told me how big the deal was I did get a tad bit nervous! But I will be excited to get it if I do! I'm sort of just rambling on right now. I hope you all are having a fabulous day.

ps where is camille?

precious illusions

you'll rescue me right? in the exact same way they never did..
I'll be happy right? when your healing powers kick in
you'll complete me right? then my life can finally begin
I'll be worthy right? only when you realize the gem I am?
but this won't work now the way it once did
and I won't keep it up even though I would love to
once I know who I'm not then I'll know who I am
but I know I won't keep on playing the victim
these precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was defenseless
and parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends
this ring will me yet as will you knight in shining armor
this pill will help me yet as will these boys gone through like water
but this won't work as well as the way it once did
cuz I want to decide between survival and bliss
and though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am
but I know I won't keep on playing the victim
these precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was a kid
and parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend
I've spent so long firmly looking outside me
I've spent so much time living in survival mode

"really makes me wonder if i ever gave a **** about you"

this is a music game! i am going to give you lines from songs and you will have to guess what song it is! sound fun? well it will be. extra love points if you know what song my blog is titled after...one hint, the cd isn't out yet.

1. Blog Title

2. "love of mine, someday you will die, but i'll be close behind. i'll follow you into the dark"

3. "three little birds sat on the window, and they told me i don't need to worry"

4. "people cleared their throats, and stared right back at him"

5. "you say love is a hell and you can not bear, and i say give me mine back and go there for all i care"

6. "lightness has a call that's hard to hear. i wrap my fear around me like a blanket"

7. "love is a burning flame, and it makes a firey ring"

8. "as he came into the window it was the sound of a crescendo"

Alright smarties! Have fun with that.... I would do more, but I have to work :)

a great blogger once wrote

Of 56 things she wants to do before she dies. So here is my stab at it!

1. Become the funniest Gibbs sister.
2. Own a BMW 3 Series by the time I'm 30.
3. Go to Hawaii and check out all the brown boys! And I wouldn't mind if I had to bring one home with me.
4. Discover my own worth.
5. Go on a Jeep safari in Africa.
6. Fall in love.
7. Have a family of my own. I can't wait to be a mom!
8. Own a BMW 7 Series when my kids are grown up and out of the house!
9. Meet U2 (especially the edge), 50 Cent, Christian Bale, Johnny Depp and... ya
10. Create my own affirmation mirror stickers and market them.
11. Buy my mom a house and dream car.
12. Watch my kids grow and have families of their own.
13. Run a half marathon (I'm not crazy enough to actually do a full one...the thought of taking a crap at the end of a race and not being able to control it in scares me)
14. Travel the world, I don't really care exactly where...I just want to see it all!
15. Go on a cruise.
16. Tollerate my bosses husband.
17. Kick bad habits
18. Be more sensitive and understanding to others feelings.
19. Speak in public without tremendous fear.
20. Release weight and stay at 130 lbs.
21. Visit Nick and Sarah
22. Be financially stable and learn how to balance my checkbook, i'm horrible at it!
23. Be a better sister and friend.
24. Get rid of chad and forgive him.
25. Surround myself with good and uplifting people who support me.
26. Own my dream home.
27. Ride a horse.
28. Learn to play the guitar.
29. Pick up piano again.
30. Create a business and work from home.
31. Forgive and forget.
32. See U2 in concert again.
33. Shake a presidents hand and a prophets hand.
34. Play soccer again.
35. Get over my fears.
36. To think of 20 more things I want to do.

37. Realize that everyone is here to work out their own salvation and that I am only in control of myself.
38. Own a beach side property and mingle with the stars.
39. Own a cute Mazda 3 by the time 2007 is over.
40. Help with humanitarian efforts all over the world.
41. Smile at more people when we cross paths.
42. Laugh more, worry less.
43. Give my children all the support and love they need to be successful in this world.
44. Turn my condo into a investment property.
45. Take singing lessons and hopefully find a mentor as great as miss taggart.
46. Ten more to go!
47. Stop biting my nails!
48. Listen.
49. Own a yacht.
50. Forgive myself.
51. Visit historical church sites.
52. Go see the Oprah show and hopefully her favorite things episode.
53. Be a hot soccer mom.
54. Get a boob job after I have kids.
55. Have a yearly family tradition and go on a cruise
56. Die knowing that I lived the life that I wanted to.

a date? what's a date?

So I have a date this weekend... I haven't been on a date well in quite awhile. I hated the singles ward for that fact. Guys never ask you out on dates. And you know it's not because you aren't cute...because even the super gorgeous fake girls don't even get asked out. It's all about "hanging out". I'm sorry, but I already have friends that I "hang out" with, if I just wanted to "hang out" I would have invited you to do so with my friends. *sighs*

Anyway, Tim is his name. You might remember him from such boyfriends as... yes that boyfriend. I'm excited to see him and it will be good to have some male contact other than my brother and my guy friends (ps...the guy friends are responsible for the movie selection andee). It's been awhile since I've seen him and I've packed on a few pounds since, but he still loves me so it's okay!

I thought I would just tell you all, cuz i'm pretty excited!

I love ross...that's all there is to it!

Okay.... So I tried just posting the video on here, but I kept getting "you're a retard" errors. SO...here are the links. Ross the Intern is SO funny. FYI...he's Jay Leno's Intern or was. Anyway...

Ross the Intern and Steve Irwin
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0WQqioqW9Xw

Ross the Weatherman
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cHzX9LvYto4

Ross goes to pit crew school
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghzKs3j7dtQ

Just for a good laugh and to kill some time!

It's a guessing game!

What British Comedy am I in and what is my name?



Why does Dwight have a disappointed look on his face?



What movie am I from and what is my main line?

Who am I?

Have fun!!

Speaking of Crack...

My neighbors are on crack. Just a little history for you that are new to this situation. Richard and Cheryl moved in around November, he was friendly when they first moved in and I only received death looks from her. I don't know why she would think I was interested in Richard in anyway. I mean...I love when a hairy beer bellied middle age man goes out to get his mail without a shirt and simpson pajama bottoms on. Hold me back sista! Shortly after they moved in the problems began... Christmas Eve cracked out Cheryl threw a "fit" outside while wearing nothing but her panties, shouting and screaming at 3 am. I'm sad I spent the night at my moms...aparently it was quite the show! A month later to be exact I was rudely awakened by what I thought was someone busting through my wall of my condo. It took me a minute to wake up enough to realize what was going on. After hearing "WHERE DID YOU PUT IT " I realized she was probably looking for her crack pipe and he has hidden it from her. Crazy crack heads. And then the calls to the cops became more frequent. My favorites are when SHE calls the cops on them. That's beyond me, but when you're all cracked out don't you try to stay away from cops? Hmm... Okay so anyway. Last night was I think the best of all episodes. I was hoping the cameras to show up so I could get on an episode of cops. Anyway, it all started because Cheryl locked Richard out of the house in a cracked out rage. I guess she was crying because she was scared so she locked him out. This cop totally made my night though. He was so impatient with them; as any cop would be who had been called to the same place a dozen times; he was yelling at them just as much as they were yelling at each other. After finally getting Cheryl to get her stuff and leave the condo they waited by the mailbox for her ride (aka ex husband). Anyway...she started to hyperventilate and the cop kept telling her to calm the hell down or she'd end up in the hospital. The cop was just hillarious, when the ex husband showed up Cheryl went running off without her things, so then for a few more minutes I was able to listen to him yell at her to get her shit. hehe Quite entertaining and I know you all are jealous!

blogger...lynette's crack

Seeing as I was told I need to post a blog more often to help feed a sick addiction here it is! I'm not too sure of what to really blog about. It is 6:30 and I am still at work waiting for a contract from this investor in California who is jerking everyone around and everyone knows it. Yet! They still are trying to make this work out, and I'm pretty much over it. This is my plea to take his earnest money and run! *sighs*




Okay so I left work shortly after and now i'm back... sorry for any confusion.

In the meantime... 3 movies to see (All three get violent at times)





















Blood Diamond was totally intense! I think Leonardo Di Caprio is kinda a nerd, but he didn't do too bad in this movie! This is the most disturbing of the three and at times just made me want to cry! But it was still really good. Not to mention the other actor (forgot his name) is really good looking and has a great bod! haha


Lord of War... who doesn't love Nicholas Cage, Jared Leto and Ethan Hawk? All three of these movies are pretty similar. I love this one because of Nicholas Cage he's a total babe and his voice is hot.




And...Blow. I think Johnny Depp says enough. He is an incredible actor! I think this was my favorite of the three. This is based on a true story and the drug lord is still in prison to this day. The interview with him after the movie is pretty interesting and to hear his take on the movie was cool.


This is my disclaimer.... All movies are violent and contain language that is offensive. I enjoyed them and the views on the world that they gave and a glimpse into what is going on everyday! But they definately aren't for everyone.

homework

i never did it in high school...so i guess i can do it now!

my birthday is november 19th (write that down)

Events:
1. 461 - St. Hilarius becomes Pope. - The reason for this event is my impression of the pope is hillarious! maybe a bit disrespectful, but still a good one.

2. 1973 - American football player Lance Rentzel is arrested for exposing himself to a 10-year-old girl; he is later sentenced to five years' probation. - Mom always told me to stay away from football players. They are no good.

3. 1998 - Lewinsky scandal: The United States House of Representatives Judiciary Committee begins impeachment hearings against US President Bill Clinton. - How would you like to be impeached because you can't keep your pants on?

Birthdays:
1. 1831 - James A. Garfield, 20th President of the United States - He was only 50 when he died.

2. 1942 - Calvin Klein, American clothing designer

Deaths:
1. 1665 - Nicolas Poussin, French painter

Holiday:
1. Ashley Jane Gibbs Day. It's not official yet, but I'm working on it. Also on this day is United States - Equal Opportunity Day

and my homework is done. quite entertaining i might add and educational! thanks kate!

random...sorry

if you haven't seen the comment that mike left on one of kate's blogs... go look for it! basically i'm moving up on the gibbs girl funny chart. i knew this day would come. so the other day my friend sent me this link to a prank call that a little girl from dublin made to a demolition company. i was laughing so hard as this girl goes on to ask them if they can get rid of her elementary school. well i sent the link to some girls i work with and nothing... they didn't laugh at any of it! it might have been one of those days when you laugh at everything due to emotional release. it was so cute though! amy sent me a text message the other day and it said "do you feel like you are stuck in some sort of labrynth" (don't ask) so my reply to her was "not sure, but as long as david bowie shows up i'll be fine" and we had a good laugh about it... my bosses husband did a few upgrades to her phone and now her text messages speak. you can imagine the kind of fun we've had with this. all day today i've been sending her text messages such as: "you're a dumb whore". it is SO hillarious to listen to her phone say them. it's pretty much been the highlight of my day. so really, if your phone has those kinds of capabilities...roll with it.

watch out now!

today is one of those out of control days. i knew when i looked at the clock and it said 10:51 that i was in for it. it had already felt like i put in a full 12 hour day! and now i look down and it's 2:56 and it makes me want to start crying. it hasn't been an extremely bad day. i love being busy, but today for some reason i feel quite off! i'm actually going to blame it all on chad (although i guess i can chose not to let him affect me, but that's besides the point). i don't like starting my day out telling someone off, but i have to stand up for myself at some point right? so, i started freaking out that i'm going to be 24 this year and that i'm not married and blah blah! while freaking out about the dumbest thing in america I was working on 5 files, dealing with a client who just didn't feel he needed to complete a few things before closing on his house, and trying to get my boss an appointment to get her hair done and ignoring her all at the same time! after letting her know i didn't give a damn about what kind of extensions she gets i felt much better. most of the time i'm really good at calming my boss down. she is super intense, and today it was ten times worse. i'm blaming it on her husband. anyway, my desk is mostly cleared off and i'm taking a moment to just breathe. i just had another agent come in and tell me when he does a residential deal he is going to use me to take care of his files. which makes me happy. he mainly does huge land deals...so not much work for me to do! but he promised, and if he doesn't all food supplies will be cut off and he can kiss his daily diet coke goodbye! use me or lose me brotha! thanks for listening! back to chaos!

love ya